I haven't written a blog entry in a week or so and if I really wanted to, I could come up with 1000 reasons why but really there is only one... I was resisting telling you I have been off track.
I have been WAY off track with my saving money and my loosing pounds.
I did like I do most of the time. I get passionate about something, dedicated, creative and begin to focus on me but then I come to a screeching halt and create a million and ten things to get in my way.
Recently I have wanted to take up my interest in photography again. I want to begin to learn the digital world of photography. I feel that I am way behind the times still shooting on film. I wanted to do something for me.
I know that this one is huge for me. I have always wanted to be a photographer and publish a book on my work but I have some HUGE fears sounding this that have kept me from staying focused on it.
It is easier to let life stop me. It is easier for me to create OBSTACLES and blame them such as my kids and all their needs, or I have to be with the kids at my school all day, the horses take so many hours of my day, I do not have money for the equipment, I do not have the skills to market myself, I have been away from it for too long, I do not know my market, etc.............
I could go on all day but why?
Why in the world am I focusing on what are my obstacles ?
DUH!!!! It is time to focus on my passion. PHOTOGRAPHY
I am a dynamic photographer. If there is something I do not have or know... I will attract it.
MY KIDS ARE SUPPORTIVE... THEY ARE MY MODELS AND BEAUTIFUL ONES AT THAT. The kids at school are great subjects also. Horses are great subjects also and bring me peace. I have asked a friend to borrow hers so I can learn now and I will plan to own one soon, I will acquire the skills to market myself or find someone who can, I will spend the time learning now and have fun doing it. I even assisted a friend shoot this past weekend and we are buddying up to support each other.
I am turning all my obstacles into something positive. I feel so much better. Look out world cause I am going to capture some amazing photographs of beauty for others to see.
I must keep the focus and the momentum going. It is time for me to be selfish and make ME important.
I am taking care and loving me.
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Any news on an apprenticeship or something like it?
Yes I went to a Photography Club meeting last week and I am going to go to one photographers to learn some printing.
I am also working with another friend photographer who is working to teach me some of the digital photo editing software programs. She also has loaned me one of her digital camera and is going to teach me the digital world. She and I did a photo session where she shot and I was her assistant. I would like to do more of that.
I am creating ways to replace my income. More to come on this soon..
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